Monthly Archives: April 2011

To be, or not to be a Mother-hood Group.

internal monologue, journal

Last month I joined a women’s group designed to help women explore their relationship to Motherhood. Each of my fellow group-mates had unique intentions upon joining the group and it was so healing and freeing and eye-opening to share in this exploration of motherhood with a small group of like-minded women!

While it might not make complete sense without having been there with me, I’ve decided to share what I wrote at our final session last night because I feel that it reflects my experience exactly…

Five weeks ago the intention was to feel out whether I had the desire to be a Mom right now — to discern between desire and fear, choice and pressure.

The beautiful discovery was of my wings — the wise winged knowledge that feels so real and tangible ever since the meditation of and about the all knowing self.

As the weeks went by, the wings got stronger and stronger, opening up self-trust, joyful self time and the clarity to feel the honest desire to mother a baby.

I’ve found confidence and comfort in knowing that my exquisite wings are firmly planted and have my back…

Thank you, Cecily and the wonderful women of Monday nights!
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catch-up from march madness

goings on, snapshots

It seems that March was busy for everyone. And it’s time I played a little catch up with some snapshots as a overview…

Late February/early March I spent in San Francisco for work. I spent two weeks leading a workshop and soaking up the beauty of the city I used to call home. I got to see a lot of my brother (but took no photos!) and Lindsey (again, no photos by me, but she caught this one on her iPhone)…

One morning I took a walk to the shore and around the beautiful Palace of Fine Arts. I took some photos with my real camera, but frankly the ones I took from my iPhone are much better…



My husband’s birthday fell on a Thursday while I was in SF, so he came to spend the weekend with me. This was awesome because we could properly celebrate together. The night he arrived I greeted him with cupcakes…


YUM!

Here he is enjoying his card and gift…

Nothing like new, lightweight running shorts for a super-duper marathon guy, right?

While we were in SF, we got to see R’s sister and our niece, who is such a rambunctious sweetie. She has such a personality – I adore her…

After I returned to LA, I got to cheer R on in the LA Marathon, his fourth. We woke up early so I could take R and Scott to Dodger stadium for the start line. Here they are, ready to go at 5:15am. I think their excitement might be a little forced??

It was pouring rain; heavy – which of course isn’t typical for LA. Not as many people were out on the streets to watch this year as in year’s past, but there was no way I was going to miss seeing my guy run by, so I took my umbrella (and my parents, who came to join me) down to Mile 12-13 and waited…

As always, when he ran by, I ran out and ran with him for a short distance, which is when I found out he was loving the rain and feeling good!

Despite the rain showers, thunder and cold conditions, R ran the race in his best time yet – 3:23:14! I love marathon day and always feel so proud…

And now here we are, already in April! I have been working so much over the past month, that this less-busy month has arrived not a moment too soon!!
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